Two year anniversary
…of the worst day of my life. I didn’t think I’d see the one year anniversary, so knowing that I’ve survived over 730 days of misery, that’s 17520 hours of sorrow, well it just makes me sad. I never understood and I was only every trying to help someone out, someone who said they were my friend.
Some people still don’t believe me. Some people don’t care how many problems or how much pain they’ve caused. If people had wanted things to be better they would have said or done something long before now. They just don’t care.
It takes more than saying the word “friend” to be one.
I’ve completely given up on everything Sauder, I wasn’t the first to do so. Things will probably never be better enough. That will always make me sad. I’ll always be the class pariah.
I was silent, I stayed away, I went away, I suffered. I still suffer, I may always suffer as a result of what happened in March 2005. I tried… trying seems to be one of my crimes, that and caring, also trusting and telling the truth. Of course I apologized, many times, even though I didn’t understand I apologized.
Hardly anyone apologized to me.
Some people still don’t believe me, or they don’t care, or they don’t want things to better. They definitely have not been a friend.
Deliberately hurting someone is never right.
Going out of my way to help people is something I’ve always done, Marlene noticed this and commented on it. People matter to me. My friends matter more, a lot more than some piece of paper.
Why did this happen? Why can’t things be better?
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