Third times the charm
Once again I failed the CFA Level 1 examination. This did not surprise me. I would have done better to write it a month or two sooner. I almost walked out during the afternoon session as I was distraught over my MBA Classmates continual refusal to care.
Why is it so easy to believe I must be lying? That I have evil ulterior motives for helping people? Why is it so hard to believe I told the truth? That I only was ever trying to help someone who repeatedly insisted they were my friend…
Even after over three years, people still refuse to believe me, they refuse to care. They definitely don’t plan on doing or saying anything to try and make my life better. They couldn’t be bothered to do anything but lie and pretend nothing was wrong back in March of 2005, now they don’t even bother to lie. Ignoring someone hurts. Deceiving someone hurts.
It doesn’t matter how many pills I take or years pass. I’ll never forget what people said, what people did, I’ll never forget the looks they gave me. Someone I trusted wanted to hurt me, someone wanted to see me suffer. Everyone else was content to stand silently by their side. Why Mar?
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